A moment to reflect today- I’m in the home stretch of my Igniting process and it time to take inventory of my progress. Truth be told, during my first intensive with Marni in which we set my 90 day goals I took a look at the list (it was looping) and thought, “jeezus- good luck sister!”
Up until now (wink, wink!) were I to not take a moment, it’s likely I would be stuck in a hamster wheel of ever reaching with little acknowledgement. So a moment…
1. My relationship has an answer- my stay or go has been concluded and I am left to deal with being independent. And independent I am! I find myself in a much more stable, strong, dare I say powerful, space than I have been in years. I’m sad, yes- this is a breakup unlike any other I’ve been through. But I know with certainty that I will be ok- ok to move on, ok to take care of myself, ok to be me.
2. My health goal is on track. I have discovered SO much about myself in addressing what’s beneath the not eating well. Learning to care for me in this way has transformed so many other areas of my life as it’s served as a platform from which I operate in a more stable way- level bloodsugar is not to be underestimated! I see that my making changes in my eating has my family doing the same, and raising my girls with a healthy awareness of food is priceless. The weight? Hasn’t come off as quickly as I had planned but what I’ve learned has made for a more sustainable plan.
3. My work life has taken shape beyond my expectations. I enjoy what I do and it fits my stay-at-home mom lifestyle perfectly. What’s more, my own business is moving forward and I feel excited about work for the first time, hmm… maybe ever!
But the biggest progress has taken place in the spaces you cannot see on a goal spreadsheet- nothing to do with my 90 day check list. It’s that I’m better with me and in me. I am more kind to me (and others)- I’ve stopped fighting for what I need and have learned to ask for it when I can- and to move on when my request cannot be met by my partner. I’ve learned how to communicate and listen better. I’ve slowed down despite becoming busier. I’m more present and appreciative of my life.
It’s the invisible stuff that feels the best. This process has definitely Ignited my Life. And I keep thinking before this 90 days is up I had better come up with another, equally long, list of goals ’cause I’m on a roll baby!