Today on Ignite Your Life LIVE! Carolin admits to a humiliating secret – her finances are in the toilet and she now has to face bankruptcy court. How will she dig herself out of this financial mess, and look for the opportunity in this less than ideal situation?
Carolin’s Financial Secret.
Today is my day in court. Bankruptcy court to be honest. And I am here to tell you the place is packed! There are three board room sized “courts” filled to the hilt with people in my same shoes. Respectable & responsible looking, hard working, middle class folks. Which leads me to some thoughts…
This day has been years in the making, really. Lots of tough financial decisions after some missteps (working 3 jobs through school didn’t cut it!). Some things I wish I’d known years ago that could have helped me make wiser decisions (sounds like other areas of my life). There’s been a good helping of plain old tough financial luck. And as I think of this entire situation I realize the way I feel about this day, this time when I have to admit to the financial-gods-that-be, that I, in fact, have not played the game perfectly but to the best of my abilities given what I knew at the time. And I fell short.
I have been carrying around a heavy bag of embarrassment about this issue- this is not something I’ve shared with anyone aside from my parents and Derek. But here’s my Ah-Ha! in this: I am not alone and what got me here was a lack of resources- yes, financial, but Bigger- knowledge! There are plenty of people in this very situation. Who knows their back story? Probably something like mine?
Since I started this Ignite Your Life LIVE process countless people have commented on how “brave” I am for being so public about my process (others say they are thankful to see someone talking, with bravery, about the same things they are dealing with). I don’t know about all that…brave maybe. What I do know for sure is what I am learning about myself, where I stand, struggling with finances, relationship, becoming a rocking mom, weight loss and food issues (just to name a few- Ha!) so do countless others. And let me tell you these things, though amazingly common, can be very isolating when you don’t have good support!
So although I’ve been sharing with you all as I go, today I am making a more conscious decision to do so. Up until now its been as part of the “deal” I made to get some Big Help & Support from Marni and her amazing community of like-minded coaches. Honestly, I was in such desperate need of Help that I would have run naked through the White House if it would have afforded me a Do-Over in showing up in my life in a more positive way. But today I realize its WAY more than that!! I am here, sharing my not-so-pretty, sometimes painfully honest side and heaping bag-full of issues to de-stigmatize some of this stuff. We need not feel isolated.
So here I am! Showing up for myself again today- in all my “faulty” glory- keeping it VERY real and hoping somehow it inspires anyone who follows this process of mine to take the stigma off and live more authentically too. When we do, and find the bravery to share, we’ll find, as I have today, we’re in very good company and maybe that helps us grow more… It is for me.